Living between people doesn't mean you're not alone. And feeling alone is not bad all the time but it's awful when have tears that no one to erase, laughs and no one to share, doubts and no one to speak out, making plans and no one to discuss. Other moments, one wish to be alone when feel refused by his friends, stranger between people that don't understand him. At that time, I wish to go back to my island. The best part about being alone is that you don't have to do what others want you to do (expectations without words). But, sometimes, when I'm back to home at night, I hope I would find someone, in there, waiting for me with missing eyes! Now, on nights that I can't sleep, I do programs with my computer until the morning. Although, in the current period, "I was never less alone than when by myself"[1], I wish to say to that feeling go away and leave me alone, because at that time I'll not be alone but I'll enjoy being alone. Paradox, I'm living in land of Paradox... Reading some horoscopes about birthday => Purle =>
Yea, it's both true nowadays, I act stupid and they're bad days, I guess... |
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It is a cycle...
You know what Ikhnaton2, I feel it is more like a cycle that we addict with time. We get ourselves in it, or the circumstances helps us to be in it and it makes us feel bad a lot of times, but we addict it. We addict the feeling of be a victim, uncared for...we also sometimes addict being alone, with feelings of very high bariers round us preventing us from revealing our inside with others, we take different means to prevent ourselves from taking this step, either by prejudicial vision towards others, or feeling carelessness from them............
I think all what it needs is a desicion to get out ot it, desicion to stop the addiction of being alone. And also a confession in front ourselves that we need others with us, we cannot live alone.
Hope that the situation gets better soon by any way.
may be there is nothing more
may be there is nothing more to be said than what the good Eyewitness did ,,, He is 100% this time ,,with his addiction theory ,, addiction to things, feelings, habbits.
Sometimes we really stick to feeling sorry for ourslves, it's pretty much consuming though it's really poetic and noble.
But sometimes we are just afraid to open up .. we feel it's safer in our lonely shells .. away in the comfort zone .. pretending we are better off alone .. no game no pain ,,,
I must admit ,, running away is much easier and safer .. but for how long ???
Life is passing by us ,, and won;t stop ,,
As the Eyewitness said ,, and I am telling this to myself too ,, it's only takes a deceision ,, a step no one can take it but you .. a decision to let the lights back in ,, so you can meet yourself first and maybe someone else to share the dusty road of life.
I just know how it feels
I can relate to being surrounded by people and feel so lonely. the point is to share, if you don't feel there is a connection between u and them, they can't not just listen but feel what you are saying so may be it's better to be litterally alone than carry the heavy weight over your shoulders to be nice and act as if everything is ok... while there is something missing... someone is missing, you can feel the pain and can't express it. Hope this loneliness go away.
كل سنه وانتم
كل سنه وانتم طيبين وربنا يعود علينا وعليكم الايام بخير
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